Little bit here and there

Bali never happened, don’t ask as I’m hate thinking about it…….

It’s funny that I am still late coming to the office; I left the house 5 minutes early than usual but still am late? And the Metro was full it is so unusual; perhaps the population in Dubai has been increase while I was on a month vacation?  Is that weird?  Well at least there a few good looking guy in the Metro this morning it just that my radar couldn't detect the “same type” as me.

I was on 2 days sick leaves after returned back to Dubai, I back to the office for a day and the next day I fell sick, cold fever, runny nose and sore throat thought I were okay after that, and this week after the weekends I fell sick again and the doctor gave me another 2 days off… it was a boring sick off days for me.. no one to take care of me .. Isn't it sad? But I don’t care, I don’t want to be mellow and gloomy about that.. I’m considering myself as a self-governing type of person so I took care of myself, there you go.

This morning I received a messages on whatsapps it’s from a guy that I met 4 years ago, he’s a Germans , it’s quite a surprised since we never really keep in touch after the first encounter where we end-up in his bed room , this what he wrote “Hi… Maybe we can meet in the next few days? Cheers” and how silly I am when I replied “I’m in Malaysia now and will be back tomorrow” why on earth I wrote that? Anyway as I don’t really give a damn about anything that got to do with “Gay Scenario” now, thus I’ll just go with the flow..  

Sometimes giving a less hope of something is way better then flying so high and end up crashing on the ground which is there are 2 possibilities either you hurt so bad or you end up 6ft below .. 

I'm going to Bali!!

Miracle works on mysterious way!! It just happened that the relationship between Michael and that Indonesian boy didn’t work out. How I know? Michael has been whatsapp me for the past 1 week telling me how the boy wants to go back to his ex, how self-fish is that? (well at least it's a good sign for me. why? read the whole story!!) I soon to found out that when I told Michael about my relationship with Tony, he was so upset and disappointed and that’s lead him to have a relationship with the Indonesian Boy, how I know again? Well he told me, Michael told me.  So since both of us not in any relationship with anyone I ask him If he wants to give US a try again and he said why not and for that I’ll be flying to Bali this October to see Michael. And of course he has to extend his stay in Bali now.

I’m a very look forward for my vacation to Bali this coming October. Hopefully everything will work just the way both of us wanted.

Bali here I come!!! 

This is not fair!!

I had a weird dream last night.. I dream I’m in Bali with Michael and with his new partner (the boy from Surabaya) the best part is Michael has more hair then in a real life and he look cuter ..auwwwwww…..

I don’t know is it because I miss him or because I MISS HIM? Hmmmm doesn’t make any difference isn’t it….? Actually yesterday I was so horny the whole day and went through the entire gay group in FB to find if any of the members have they phone number left in the comments and I managed to find TWO!!! Lol I have no idea what was in me last night I act totally like a DESPERADO ….. but can assure that will be the last time I did some silly act!! No more after this..

To be in the metro every weekday in the morning with very good looking guys in suit doesn’t help me at all and it include for today as well , a middle age men was standing next to me in the metro this morning and his smell was so YUMMY and he got a very fluffy fingers … ahhh whatever that means … was trying to smile at him but it seems he’s very busy looking at other female passenger.. okay that’s the sign that he’s straight ..move forward!!

Isn’t my life is so difficult!!? be surrounded with good looking guys every day but being HERE I only manage to see but not touch!!!  So disappointed..Can anyone HELP me!!!!!

p/s: even the taxi drivers !! they are so HOT!!!  

Where's my cupid?

This kind of event that Me need to attend regularly BUT unfortunately it won’t be happened here in Dubai.

Me is thinking to take 3 months unpaid leaves and travel to the place where Me can go and have funs without any restriction and who knows Me might lucky enough to find “the one” and live happily ever after *yup!! me still in the dreamland* 

Me now is thinking to create a group for a decent gay guy on FB and no silly advertisement on the group wall!! It’s just so wrong to advertise your dick measurement on public with hope people will turn on *well, it works for some people* it really annoy me actually..

What happen to the traditional on line dating you know the one where you send a message and got a reply, later you changing phone number and go out for a decent cup of coffees? 

I am happy and I am lying...

Being alone since forever is sucks , I wonder until when I can be like this ..seriously it’s killing me from the inside.. I wish I am somewhere where I can advertise myself In the news paper

Name: so and so

Age: 31 going to be 32 this October

Orientation : gay

Not good in cooking, crazy and can be ugly sometimes, 5’ 3” , bottom, love cuddling, looking for a life partner 

p/s: call me now and I let you buy me dinner!!

Wonder how long can I stand being alone here in Dubai..? while somewhere in the other continent “the one” is waiting for me..or am I “the one” for some guy out there and just waiting the right moment to be save?  Or… maybe I just turn myself to straight married the girl that like me so much and have babies….would I be happy ?

Back to where I belong

It has been a long time since my last post. Michael and I are no more longer in relationship as a couple we are now back to where we started..as a FRIEND. He met someone new,  an Indonesian boy from Surabaya in fact they are in Bali , spending  their time together  … and I am here writing my Blog while listening to “Adele –Hiding my heart away” how pathetic is that?

Since I’m away I tried few method to find my soul mate and that’s include me to travel.. YES!! I did a 10 days journey to Zurich, Swiss with hope I’ll find “the one” .

I met a guy ………..

And he’s so charming and because of that, we had sex at first night when we met!! basically because both of us are semi-drunk.  He’s an American guy who just came from France from holiday .. trust me everything was so amazing!!  Until when he went back to the “UNCLE SAM”  everything change ever since!!! The American attitude starts to showed up!! What was I thinking? a "happily ever after" life after a one night jiggie-jiggie? What a typical asian minded I am….!!

And after all the drama I’ve been through for almost 32 years now!! I have decided not to look for “the one” anymore . I am more than happy now collecting all the semi-mellow songs in my ipod for me to listen while  travelling back from work in the metro!!!

Cheers!!