I just want.......

I fully blame on the hollywood, you kow how they made a movie that always end up with "happily ever after" kind of thing..it make me belief that the same thing could  happen in the real world...the fact is, it isn't...real life is more ... complicated i would say. I've been travelled to few places ..singapore, thailand, new zealand, doha, switzerland, dubai  for the sake to find "the one" but you all can guess how it end up...well im still single at the age of 32 (going to be 33 soon) and i have no idea what else could i do to have a guy that i can call a partner cum best friend cum bf cum significant others cum what ever you want to call it...  Life at the moment for me is half empty... i was on my way to the office this morning and i saw a couple infront of me was holding hands while walking side by side and how they enjoy simple thing together, im kinda jelous and questioning my self why can i have tht kind of life..?where did i do wrong..? I just want to be able share my happiness or my lowest moment with someone and will do the same thing too for them...it hurt me when coming home from the office and you couldn't share a damn thing with someone special because you don't have anyone SPECIAL!!! (oh yes im shouting now) especially when you have a rough day and a cuddle can release all the stress neutralize you mood back..isn't it just awesome to have "the moment"  My wish for 2013 is ..... The same wish that had in 2012......2011........2010......2009....... To find my "one" 

It sucks to be me right now

Got a promotion last year (December) as a Administrator-client relation, and I didn't like the job..it need me to be multitask and also i have to do a precurement...double hate the job!! I start to go back home late..coming to the office early...even going to the office on weekend... I have no idea why i accepted the promotion.. The money is good but it's not everything (eventually i realise it), I just want my free time back, where I can chill out with my friends or having my own time reading new #1 books in market ( by the way 50 shades of grey superb and the other 2 is suck!!) tomorrow i have to go to the office to figure out how can I complete the monthly report which to be honest i have no idea how to do it :( hopefully by looking back at previous month report I'll have at least some idea how to do it, otherwise I just let my faith this sunday in the hand of God ( yup! Here in Dubai, the first day of the week is Sunday)  I am now considering to quit my job and travel somewhere with a really budget expenses with hope to find "the one" but on the other hand I don't want to be a quiter, at least let me try for another couple of months first..then we'll see from there..after all a calm sea never made a skillful sailor, aye?