I just want.......

I fully blame on the hollywood, you kow how they made a movie that always end up with "happily ever after" kind of thing..it make me belief that the same thing could  happen in the real world...the fact is, it isn't...real life is more ... complicated i would say. I've been travelled to few places ..singapore, thailand, new zealand, doha, switzerland, dubai  for the sake to find "the one" but you all can guess how it end up...well im still single at the age of 32 (going to be 33 soon) and i have no idea what else could i do to have a guy that i can call a partner cum best friend cum bf cum significant others cum what ever you want to call it...  Life at the moment for me is half empty... i was on my way to the office this morning and i saw a couple infront of me was holding hands while walking side by side and how they enjoy simple thing together, im kinda jelous and questioning my self why can i have tht kind of life..?where did i do wrong..? I just want to be able share my happiness or my lowest moment with someone and will do the same thing too for them...it hurt me when coming home from the office and you couldn't share a damn thing with someone special because you don't have anyone SPECIAL!!! (oh yes im shouting now) especially when you have a rough day and a cuddle can release all the stress neutralize you mood back..isn't it just awesome to have "the moment"  My wish for 2013 is ..... The same wish that had in 2012......2011........2010......2009....... To find my "one"